Mulling

So this is what I've been doing in my free time; thinking. Been doing a lot of that lately and I guess I've not done enough because everytime I seem to do it, I find that I had overlooked rather important things. I realized that I have another fear that comes along with my decision of spilling the beans. Everyone else might/will find out; one way or the other. If things go okay or things go bad. His friends will find out and I have to deal with that. I have to decide if I can take the pressure/consequences of my action. If I do carry out this thing, it will be a little while from now. The timing is off which is good as I believe that I need this time to think things over.

Also, I've been worrying about my friend lately. When I met her, I knew that she had tendencies towards the "other side" but they are pronounced, more than ever. I fear for her. I don't want her to make that decision because I know it will hurt herself, her loved ones and God. What can the "other side" offer her? Acceptance? Well, she's a bit of an oddball but I like her the way she is. Maybe it isn't enough for her. Well, I want to talk to her about it but then again, I have no idea on how to approach the subject because I know it's a rather sensitive issue for her. Need to do more thinking I think.