This Is The Answer!

John Mayer - Split Screen Sadness

And I don’t know where you went when you left me but
Says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of a telephone
Wonderin' when the call comes
Where you say it’s alright
You got your heart right

Maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on your porch ‘till you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight

We share the sadness
Split screen sadness

Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight

"All you need is love" is a lie 'cause
We had a love but we still said goodbye
Now we’re tired, battered fighters

And it stings when it nobody’s fault cause there's
Nothing to blame At the drop of your name
It’s only the air you took and the breath you left

So maybe I’ll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on your porch 'til you come back home
Oh, right
I can’t find a flight
So I’ll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right

We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)

I called
because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don’t hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me ‘til Your dying day
Don’t let me get away

Cause I can’t wait to figure out what’s wrong with me
So I can say 'this is the way that I used to be
There’s no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
We share the sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Split screen sadness
(two wrongs make it all alright tonight)
Oh and the sadness
It's alright, it's alright
Oh and the sadness
It's alright, it's alright
Oh and the sadness
It's alright, it's alright

Snow snow snow!

Make a snowflake and enjoy the holidays!

I will be done very soon I hope. The problem with having papers so near the holidays is that I tend to drag my feet. I sooo...do not feel like writing my papers! I just want to dive into the holidays. Only...8 days until I fly back home! :D

My Monkey Says....

If you think you can nag me more than my mum does, think again.

Don't use the excuse that you're stressed or you worry for me etc. because although I worry for you and I don't nag you to death.

I think you're old enough to think for yourself. So please, return the favor...I don't need to be treated like a 5 year old.

And as for telling you off...that's for not respecting my decisions.

Don't whine to me because you're not going to get an apology nor sympathy.

...talk to the hand!

Woohoo! An 80s Christmas!

I love this song and the original version is the best! Am trying to finish all my papers as soon as possible so I can chill out by the end of next week. Yay! I'm coming home soon and Christmas is here. I'm just having a really happy day...anticipating the holidays! :)

Poor Environmentalists!

I mean...literally poor!

I was checking out some job postings for my field and oh my goodness, the salary range is from $23k to $30k a year. And the $30k is for those with a MS Degree. I don't have that...yet! So I am thinking, should I go back to school again and get a MS Degree because (heck!) of the salary raise?

I already imagined the expenses...rent...car loan...food...taxes...tithes...and no shopping. Absolutely none or extremely minimal. On the other hand, actuaries (like Calvin...=.=") are entitled to a starting salary of about $40k a year. That is twice what I get paid with the same level of qualifications! Gah!!

Now I know why they choose what they do for the money. For the money dammit! I should've been "smart" to work for money instead for passion. Hmm....maybe not.

But ugh, don't you think I should get paid a little more? Like $30k a year at least? There should be some perks at least for trying to save the world right?

The holiday mood...

...kills the desire to finish one's final projects/papers. Blah!

I find myself doing everything else willingly, anything that has nothing to do with homework. I dunno, I guess I'm just really sick of school at the moment. This is probably the worst semester I had here at Drake. 4 classes but it seems like 5.5 and last semester, 5 classes seemed like cake to me. Maybe its the material I'm supposed to be reading about.

Totally depressing!

Who knew that there were so many dimensions to environmental science and environmental policy. It sucks because I am totally overwhelmed by what I read and to even think about trying to possibly foster change to the current system makes me so damn depressed because it seems like all the odds are stacked against me. And I for one, was so naive to think that the US had a pretty good system in place before I came here. Wrong!

If I had to live overseas for the rest of my life, I would move far far away from the US and the horrible things that happen here. I think a lot of you probably don't know what I'm talking about but that's fine. Read my class blog -Pensees sur le vert or educate yourself. Pick up a copy of "Taking Action, Saving Lives" by Kristin Shrader-Frechette. Insanely enlightening but at the same time, extremely depressing.

And here I am, still doing the same 'ol thing. Shopping at Walmart...and just plain shopping. It is hard to prevent oneself from being sucked into American consumerism. But damn, Sephora and VS had such good deals that I couldn't resist. To make matters worse, my new obesession is makeup. So I have been doing quite a lot of makeup purchases lately because it so freaking cheap here compared to buying the same thing in Malaysia.

See how I am torn between my love for the environment and my love for shopping and makeup?!!

This will not do. One has to go soon and I suspect it will be the shopping but mainly because my bank account dictates it.