I guess what I really want is closure so that I can move on with my life. I hate having to keep guessing and hoping for something that might not be there afterall. If only things were in black and white, without the shades of gray that seem to permeate every single aspect of this issue, let alone life.
The question is will I be as alright as I think I will be if things didn't turn out the way I would like it to be? And am I willing to sacrifice this friendship for the sake of learning the truth and gaining closure? Despite the many times I try to deny it, there is a very real possibility that things will change between us if I said what I had to say and I don't want that to happen. With my entire being...I don't want that to happen.
Losing the person as a friend would hurt even more than to lose them the other way. If somehow, through some miracle or divine intervention I learn that things would stay the same, I would say what I want to say without giving it a second thought. But the truth is, I don't know what will happen. And that is what I'm afraid of. Is it worth it?
6 comments:
Well, I've tried both ways. It all depents on that person. Some of them, after u told them or watever, u guys can still be frens or even close frens or vice versa.
~hannah~
Yeah, I know it can go both ways. I just don't want it to turn sour if I do say something you know? I am still thinking about things though.
hmmmm... You do what u think its the best.. You should know the person better n roughly knows how he/she will act..
The thing is, I don't know...
-.-" then hor i think u should just do wat u think is right. React to e situation lor..
The reaction will only come if I tell them right? =.="
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