Wishful Thinking

I was suddenly overcome with a wave of either insanity or a heck load of courage and wanted to tell this person my thoughts about them. I wonder if it is a temporary thing or something inside me that had changed because for that period of time, I didn't really care about what the person might have ended up saying to me...whether what was said would be hurtful to the point of irrepairable damage. The thing was and is, I feel that somehow, I'll be immune to whatever that might have be said. Is that a bad sign? Had my stance about that person changed? Or was it just temporary insanity?

I wonder what it is like to act on impulse? Will things turn out horrible or for the better? I guess such decisions are not meant to be done on impulse but then again, who knows what might happen. The logical part of my brain tells me not to say anything but then again, the urge was so strong; strong enough that I was about to try and IM the person. My only fear is that if I say what I had to say, things would be strained in the future and I know I would hate that very much. Because right now, I feel that if I said it and things didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be, I wouldn't be bothered about it. I will resume my normal routine and things between us would be the same.

But most likely it will never be the exact same thing. So I guess its just my wishful thinking. But somehow, if I knew that things will not change, I would say something...even if the person doesn't share the same opinion about me.