Letting Go

After all this thinking and struggling that I've been going through. After feeling like a yo-yo on an almost daily basis, I finally made my decision. It came to me in the oddest place; the Asian Market. Something a friend said regarding this boy just clicked into my head. I've finally decided not to tell him. Not out of cowardice but because I feel that it is the right thing to do. A friend of mine recently told me very frankly to think things through...if I could see a future with him. It was hard to accept that even I was not sure of things to come.

I guess I'll have to get over this somehow, through some other way and no doubt that it will be a struggle, I have a feeling that I'll be alright. It's not easy to get over someone that you feel so strongly about. To make little of the good times you had together and keep everything strictly platonic. Remembering the times when they opened up and shared their heart honestly with you. He's like a vault, no matter how hard you try to get through, you just can't get in unless he lets you. And it was then that I realized how beautiful he was when I saw what was on the inside. I was trying hard...so hard to get in and nothing seemed to work.

I now know that this is not meant to happen for now. As for the future, I don't know and right now, I don't want to know. What I do know is, I'll know when the time is right. Love does not come easily nor is it easy. But when it does, I'm going to give it my best shot.

Give by Dishwalla

I have felt the comfort
Now what did I do to disappoint you?
Idle my emptiness
And it keeps returning to remind me
That I want to remain
A child with you forever
And here as you lay before me
You tease me and tell me to stay
But what would you give
What would you give
I have given everything I could
But I don't think it really matters
Maybe nothing does