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Recently, I've been spending a lot of time with my friend Sam which is good because it seemed like a better way of using my time rather than going out partying every weekend or sitting around and moping about you know who. I've decided to give up on what I want for the time being so I've been doing my best not to see him and it has been working. I've been feeling much better and even when I do see him, I don't feel heartsick that much anymore. Having a regular conversation does not seem so hard anymore.

However, tonight is special. We'll be going to an orchestral performance together; just the both of us. He was looking for someone to go with to his professor's recital tonight and no one else wanted to go so I volunteered. You may think I'm doing the wrong thing by spending time alone with him but the truth is, I miss talking to him. Haven't had that one-on-one time in several months. Maybe I'm making up excuses for myself but I've always wanted to go to the orchestra at Drake but never had before.

I wasn't being optimistic about the whole thing either because he had a very busy day working and didn't get much sleep so there was a good chance that he might decide not to go. When I asked him about it, I was doing my best not to persuade him but to let him decide. Also, if I didn't go with him, I had something else that I could attend anyway. According to our conversation on the phone, he is coming but I have to give him a lil wake up call because he's going to take a nap before heading out with me.

I don't know if he'll wake up or change his mind at the last minute but for now, I'll allow myself a small smile.

Edit: Up to the time while we were about to leave, he kept asking other people to come along. Guess he didn't want to just watch it with me; we ended up sitting with a mutual friend at the auditorium. So much for being slightly optimistic.