I thought things ended 2 weeks ago but last night I found myself having another deeper version of the previous conversation that we had. I admit that I resented seeing him for the past week, even yesterday. He came by after dinner to just talk, and we did; with long periods of silences in between.
Somehow it feels that he's trying to convince himself that things will not work out and seeing me and saying it out loud to me helps. Maybe it's just me, but I feel that he's afraid of a lot of things. Afraid of hurting me, afraid of being himself, afraid of making the wrong decisions in life, regret....shame. He told me things aren't easy and I agreed with him, but I said that life is as easy or as hard as you make it out to be.
I am already moving on, I've been feeling it. I told him that I will not be here, in this state of mind for long and he said he knows, he said I deserved better. He left without finishing the conversation looking rather troubled. I hope he'll feel okay eventually because I know I will.
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