Quiet Time

For the first time in weeks, I actually have the time to just sit down and chill. To do whatever I want - like painting my nails. Haven't done that in a while. My usual schedule would be to come back from class/work....crawl into bed, wake up for dinner, take a shower and study study study. The cycle repeats itself again the next day. I haven't felt sleepy at all this afternoon which is good. It is snowing outside and I don't know but something about looking at falling snow relaxes me. There's about 3 inches on the ground now and it doesn't look like it's stopping anytime soon.

I was hanging on by sheer will power for the past few weeks, trying to squeeze everything into my schedule and not to mention my drama-filled life. I found myself in so many new situations, something that I've never experienced before and I doubt I would have if I was still in Malaysia. This semester was a crazy thrilling emotional roller-coaster ride for me compared to last semester when I was still getting used to living over here. I am thankful for the many new friendships formed this semester and a strengthening of the old.

I learnt a lot about myself, about other people...about the things that I will have to face when I leave school and step out in the real world. I learnt to let go of certain things in my life that I knew that holding onto them only brought me down. I learnt to take life as it comes, one small step at a time because sometimes, the plans that you have in mind do not come to past...but life never fails to jump and surprise you in the face.

The timing could have never been crazier - 2 weeks from finals. I think I met someone with that spark. We haven't decided what exactly is going on but its alright because I don't know either, not right now at this stage in my life. Neither does he. I'll be coming home for Christmas and it's a good thing because then, we'll have time to think about things over Winter Break and see what lies ahead next year. Whatever it is, if it's meant to work out...it will.