Perspective

After 30 or so hours of flying and layovers, I arrived back home in Malaysia. I found it hard to believe that I had been away from home for almost a year. It didn't seem that long ago but time flies I guess. I came home with a glad heart after being away from all the things and people I grew up with. It was only when I got back that I realized how much I miss all of them, and how much I changed over the year while I was away. Change is not neccessarily bad, experience definitely made me wiser; I give it that much credit. I came back more appreciative and more understanding.

As ironic as it may sound, I am on good terms with my parents. I think they trust me like never before and I am not going to take that trust forgranted. I guess being away from home made me grow up which I did not have the opportunity to do while I was here. I did try, yes I did but my parents weren't ready to let me go just yet. Everything has its own time.

I managed to get home in time for Christmas by divine intervention. My tickets were cancelled and I had to call the airline and reschedule my flight. Some of my friends who also had their tickets cancelled could only get the next available flight on Jan 7th so they ended up not going home at all. Somehow, one thing I learnt is that although people fail you time and time again, God never does.

I am being very blunt and honest about things right now. Over the one year I was away, there were times I could've got into many possible messes and I almost did. I am ashamed of my behavior but then again, although I did some crazy things, there was always something holding me back. And I know what that is now. And words cannot express how grateful I am for that. For all the times when people were praying for my safety, thank you.