Update

I haven't blogged for a while because I guess nothing much was going on and I was really stressed from my classes. I had so much to do and I was so drained, both physically and emotionally that I didn't feel like doing anything else but sleep. i just got 2 tests over with and you know that feeling when you don't feel like you can never study enough for a class? That was exactly how I felt and that sucked. But anyhow, I'm glad that I have a little room to breathe now.

I've been feeling rather dead inside I suppose. Spiritually and emotionally and it isn't a good feeling because I can't help but feel that there is nothing more to life. I guess I lost myself somewhere and I need to find it again. I know I'll be coming home in a few weeks but now, I wish it was sooner. I think I need to get back to my roots - my country, family and friends.

Recently, things seem to be improving with him although I decided to let it go. Previously, even our friendship seemed strained but now, I think something changed, either in him or in me and we seem to get along better than usual which is nice for once. I hate to have to struggle at maintaining a friendship that I don't want to lose. I hope things will get better soon from now on.