You know that feeling. That gnawing feeling in the pit of your stomach when you have something to tell someone but you can't do it out of the fear of ruining their life, your life. So what do you do? You keep it inside, burying it underneath layers of logic and reason; hoping that it goes away eventually. But it doesn't. Not for a while anyway. It pops its head up every now and then, and that feeling in your stomach grows even worse. It affects every aspect of your life, when you're awake, when you're daydreaming, when you're sleeping. It overwhelms your entire being until you feel like you're going to explode if you don't get if off your chest. But you can't. You just can't bring yourself to tell them.
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Manda, I sorta noe how u felt. It's extremely hard to explain exactly how ur heart felt. In relationship, its pretty out of our control.
It was kinda similar to my case when I was with Eric. He ended up pushes me away and from then till now, we are no long close frens anymore. Now we are pretty like hi & bye frens. After that I dont mine to be close again to him but he dont seem like want to be close again. Before that, I really enjoy him calling me baby, chat with me almost everytime he sees me on9 & etc. But this no more happen again. I even blame myself for moving on too fast and agree to meet up with him. I've been very emo for 1 week & cry pretty much. Once in a while when I think back or saw those pics we took, I really regreted alot alot. After that I keep on reading his blog n send him stuff by facebook & etc, then later I get to know that I eventually still hope that he will come back and I know it wouldnt happen. But now I always remind myself that I have bigger things to do for God and this might happen for a reason. Plus, maybe God noes that they are not the guys for both of us. God just wants the best for us.
U wont get over this that fast, i believe, coz u always see him around and it takes a kinda long time to totally get over it. Sometimes it take months or even years but I believe one day u will eventually get over it and move on. Well, Im not a person can really give gd advice or etc but this is the best i can give, Hope it helps. *grin*
Amaze
Yeah, it sucks when you have all these intense feelings and you can't tell the dude. It sucks big time.
Hang on to what you know is good and true, dearie. God will work a miracle in your heart. But some miracles take more time than others.
*HUGS*
Yo, My beloved cousin. Hmmmm... Its been a while since we chat or spoken. So idecided to bumb in but din't expect to see this. Well all this while when i get shits like this ur the person that is always there to talk to me. I don't really know whats happening. When ur on drop me a msg on msn. I believe u will stand again. Just take ur time like me. If u remember wat happen months ago.. Now i'm ok. Having fun with my own life and yeah.. Thanks a lot to u. I think its time for me to talk yo ya. Get to me on MSN. Hope to hear from you. Hope your well too over there. Miss u a lot. :)
Amaze, thank you so much for your advice. I guess it's something I need to figure out for myself. I don't want to end up feeling like crap if you know what I mean. *hug*
CC, *hugs* I thought I was okay but apparently I thought too soon. Sometimes I think I'm going to go crazy. Yeah, I think the best thing is to just leave it to God. Thank you for your concern. :)
My favorite cousin, so I ain't as invincible as I seem at times eh? I try to be a big tough girl but sometimes, something or someone comes along and just messes that part of me up. Glad to know that you're doing okay over there. Sorry if I haven't been keeping in touch. Things went haywire over here and dealing with them was already emotionally draining. Thanks for your concern and I'll talk to you soon. Promise. :)
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