Combustion

So I'm a Christian, but then again, there are times that I don't feel like I'm one, let alone want to be one simply because I don't want to be a hypocrite. But tell me, how does one control anger that is on the verge of becoming rage? I know I'm not a particularly patient person, especially when it comes to issues that are my pet peeves.

Like this morning, I got this message from someone trying to very obviously dig out information from me that has absolutely got nothing to do with them whatsoever. Like hello?! What is your problem? Leave it be! You don't need to know that, let alone have any opinion on it. It's my bloody life and I can do whatever I want without your concern let alone consent.

And then, my professor assigned us this assignment that seems impossible to do. Imagine...I spent 2 hours trying to figure out how to do it and I have no freaking idea on how it should work. Everything I tried has failed! I even asked my classmates and they don't even know how to do it. To make matters more interesting, it's due tomorrow. I think I might have to skip work just to try and finish the damned thing. It does not help that I'm kinda broke and I need the money!

Then, there is this boy who is driving me crazy. Everything that I do seems to be pushing him further and further away from me. Talking doesn't help and when I try to be nice, it somehow backfires on me. What the hell should I do? I have given up hope. All I want to do is to beat the crap and yell my lungs out at him in his face.

I feel calmer but then again, I feel the anger buried somewhere inside of me. Its capped down tightly but its struggling to get free. Anything might just set it off...anything...


"Pardon me while I burst into flames. I've had enough of the world and its people's mindless games. So pardon me while I burn..."