ZOMG!

Well, I finally packed my stuff and moved some of it out. Oh boy, I realized that I have tons of stuff! My room is pretty empty now so much so that it feels weird. My friends are leaving or have already left to Malaysia so I guess the summer will be different. Tomorrow will be the last day that that Hubbell will be open. Only for breakfast. I won't be seeing him again...maybe forever! Gah!

I went to Hubbell for dinner today and it was rather empty, not surprising since a lot of people left already. When I walked through the entrance, I was like "What?!". He was working the register and I freaked out inwardly (of course!) because I don't want to see him face to face but at the same time, I do. He saw me, I saw him and of course, I acted all nonchalant. He said "Hello"...and I replied with a "Hi". He was acting really cool and all, took my card, fiddled with it for a moment before swiping it. I acted like I didn't care but inside it was ZOMG!. I was totally zoned out from that for a while.

I prepared to have dinner by my lonesome because none of my friends were there. I sat there...thinking. Eventually they showed up. The view from the table was better than expected. After closing the register and locking the doors, he was wiping down the tables and arranging the chairs. I prefer to watch him doing stuff rather than watching him when he's free just in case he realises that I'm looking at him. My friends told me that I suck. I have to agree with them on that one. I totally suck when it comes to talking to a guy that I'm crushing on. My guts vanish and I go into a blank state of mind - absolutely tongue tied. My friend said that he probably thought I was stuck up. Well, I'm not...just freaked out.

When we were leaving, he was wiping our table down. The last table as he already did the others. As we were going out, my friend smiled at him....I grimaced. He didn't smile back according to her. I suppose that's the way he is. Too cool to care perhaps? Or just a jerk...? I'm terrible at this anyway so it wouldn't make any difference.