Birthday Blues

Well, it's that time of year again. This time around, the years ahead look rather intimidating as I'll officially turn 21 in a few hours. Being older means more responsibility blah blah blah. I don't know if I'm quite ready to face the future just yet. It's so easy to get comfortable with where you are now and not want to move along. After enjoying that wonderful party of mine, I feel that going to the States is a huge thing and I don't know if I'm ready to pack up and leave. I know I've said so many many times that I'm dying to leave but now, if I leave, it's with a heavy heart.

The fact that I'm feeling rather reluctant to go seem like I would really leave this time around. In another 7 weeks I'll be at the airport, hugging and kissing all my friends and family goodbye. I intend to stay back in the States for the summer holidays and find work but now, I have to really see what happens when the time comes. Staying back is a good option as I hope to find a job so that I would be able to make a little cash on the side. The next holiday would be in December. I'd rather come home and spend Christmas here with my family than to spend it without them in the States.

I'd hate to grow older as age comes packaged with other things which aren't so nice at times. I'll miss you guys loads! So much that I'd probably end up getting homesick eventually. But nevertheless, some sacrifices have to be made; friends, family and home in return for education and ambition. Make sure you guys try to catch up with me as often as you can, whether it is by reading my blog or by chatting with me online and I'll promise to do the same.