Time To Change

I've yet to decide if this blog should be a private one or otherwise but if you end up reading this sometime in the future, I think you can gauge for yourself the decision I've made. Its harder somehow to write and know that someone other than yourself is reading what you've wrote.

Anyhow, this is an alternate blog to my 'Life and Times of Being Rotten'. I've only got about 3 more months here before I have to leave for Canada. The very thing that I've been looking forward to all these years is finally coming to past. No doubt that the road to get where I am today was tough, tougher than I ever expected it to be. I was so close to losing this dream but thank God, He intervened in his own way and timing to grant the desire of my heart. I owe so much to my parents, the amount that they sacrificed and endured to try and give me what I want. Thank you Mum and Dad for supporting me in this endeavour of mine although you did not initially approve of it.

I know what it feels like to encounter financial difficulties in this area. There were so many times I came up with excuses to stall my application process because I knew that my parents did not have adequate finances to send me over. I was aiming to go to America but I ended up settling for Canada, one reason because it is cheaper. When I had to rush my application there, I thought I was going to go mad because I had to obtain so many documents to send to the universities. However, I am glad to say that I've so far received confirmation from all 3 universities on receiving my application. The only thing left is to sit for my TOEFL which will be this coming Thursday. I can't say that I'm not nervous at all because it has been a while since I wrote any serious long essays or went for English classes. However, I will be trying my hand at some online trial exercises to give myself some practice before actually taking the test.

It is quite hard to accept the fact that I will be wholly independent in a few months time. I will be away from my family and friends for a long time, the first in my lifetime and I have to admit, it is a scary thought. No doubt I felt excited when I got the confirmation but now, it is starting to get scary as I sit down and think about it. No more meeting my best friends, family, CG members, crush and my dog. I have no idea how I'm going to deal with it. I sincerely hope that will not end up becoming extremely homesick and cry all the time. I don't want to let my parents worry about me.

Things have to start being different from now on. I have to start doing things when I have to do them and not wait for someone to remind or prompt me. I need to get a grip on serious matters in life and learn how to deal with people and not let anyone put me down. I will have to be disciplined in my studies to excel in what I am going to do. I want to give my best shot at this because you only get one chance; don't let it pass you by.